Friday, December 31, 2010

1.1.11(dh post smlm, server down, hr ni br dpt. sobs3)

hey there, peace be upon u..


hmm.. lets see.. nk ckp psl ape ni.. well, esok tahun baru.. i'm in my room, having my supper (crispy chicken fillet with fried rice and strawberry juice).. muahaha.. my tummy mmg stok perot longkang.. i'm in love with foods.. tapi, body tetap sekeping - =_=" .. why? adakah ini juga genetik? hoho.. it's okay, bersyukur sebab tidak obesiti.. hihi..


bercakap soal malam tahun baru ni.. hurm.. masa zaman jahiliah dulu, pernah la menyertai konsert.. AF contestants datang.. pfft!! teehee..


now, rasa seperti merayakan tahun baru adalah tidak perlu.. sekadar mengenang what we have done, what is wrong, what is right, etc2. dan berdoa supaya menjadi lebih baik adalah better, bukan? hehe.. bersyukurlah dengan apa yang ada.. perbaikilah segala cacat cela.. apologizing and forgiving should be applied during new year's eve.. rather than, having fun doing immoral things yang kononnya "this is the way of celebrating and appreciating youth, bro" -- such a waste. for me. ^^,


i'm living in a wayyyyyyyy different mentality of people - liberalism.
where you can find youths french-kissing on the sidewalk, etc2.. - budaya kuning. merata-rata.
malam tahun baru, apatah lagi, jangan bayangkan. not good, not good.. tehee~
ouh, jangan malukan diri seperti itu. moral jangan diletak di kepala lutut. not good.. not good. everyone knows why those things are not good, right? (sebenarnya, pemalas nak explain pjg lebar- kang melalut ;P)


malam tahun baru ni, reminds me of my beloved ones.. i wish i am at home right now, enjoying fireworks on tv, accompanied by my family.. huhu.. stop dreaming, gumiho! haih. rindu. yang teramat.


i called them just now, they're doing fine. and hoping i'm doing fine too.. =)
yeah, i'll always be fine as long as all of you are doing fine too.
(ok, dh brp byk pkataan fine kt situ? haih. masih anak2 dalam penulisan blog. maaf. tehee)




well, peeps. happy new year!!!
jom berusaha untuk menjadi seorang insan yang lebih baik.. for us and people around us.
                                                                                                                          

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

pieces of me.

hey there.. huhu. nak buat ape ni?... hmm.. lets 'curhat'ing, okeh. 

oh, hihi.. btw, curhat means = luahkan rasa/perasaan in indonesian language. apekaaa?? layan jela ye. ^^

ok, actually, i have no idea of writing any entry for now.. it's just that i'm kinda need a medium to express my feelings, my thoughts, my thinking.. i used to have a diary -- long-long time ago.. hohoho.. 

but then, i've lost it.. and seems like i've lost my way of expressing my feelings too.. i've lost my way of writing.. and i'm kinda lose my confidence- to write stories of me, peoples around me, etc.. and hurm, i used to have a blog too.. hihi =P

well, it was about 3years ago.. i deleted it.. it carves too many scars on me.. it leaves too many sad feelings in me.. well, i deleted it because i don't want to hurt me and peoples around me.. i don't have the guts to express more of my thoughts, bad thoughts of those who hates me.. tak sampai hati.. even if they wouldn't know about it, i still don't have enough courage to celaka kan those peeps publically..i just - tak sampai hati.

i'm genetically a hot-tempered-emo girl.. hihi.. when i talk, i'll talk frankly.. and peeps usually misunderstood my frankly thoughts and words as complaints - i think.. haha.. yeah, i know. i should not always be frank in my words. i seriously have to stop my habits. but how? it is in my blood.. i can't help it. i just can hold it-which rarely happens. huhu.. but not too long.. i'm too honest with my words and it always hurt others-especially those whom i love most. family, frens, my liver.. yes, my one-and-only liver.. biyane!*bowing*

most of the time, i'm afraid of myself. i'm afraid of losing them. afraid of misunderstanding that might occurs due to my badmouth.. i'm sorry, really sorry.. i just can't lie to those i love.. it hurts, but it hurts me more when i have to lie to those i love most. sorry.. please, bear with me and my words.. i'm sorry. oh, seriously, i have to change. change for good at least. sigh.



JOM TARIK NAFAS PANJANG-PANJANG!!! pejam mata.................. hold it - as long as you can.
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HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i hope i'll change for good- for a better future. take care peeps!






Tuesday, December 28, 2010

THROUGH MY EYEBALLS.

hey there.. haha.. finally, i'm having a blog.. happy reading y'all~


"i feel pain every time i catch a glimpse of one of her old parts"

"did you see that? oh, nevermind. if you don't see it now, i hope you'll see it someday."
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P/S : i hate hearting you too much, though i can't help it.